Masterbation of Thoughts

As I lay on my back I slowly think about the past as I ease my hand on my future. I relax my hand there to feel safe, intoxicated, and then rejuvenated. My hand begins to move in circles of life, pulling me closer to myself. Connecting me to what I had lost for years, my peace, my sanity and my pussy. It feels good to take over my body, stroking my outer feelings to become wet with inside satisfaction. I am to scared to open myself up, so I leave that hole closed. I rub around it because that hole brings back force, and control. So I massage it to relax it and whisper within myself, its ok your safe in the hands of yourself. I quickly bring my hands up to my pearl to remember that is pure and cleansed. I go arount the clit to produce what no one else could, so I thought. So he wont touch it again I want you to protect it. So I turn my hands over to you, I place what was once his in her moist, soft and pretty hands. She will forever take care of you now. She will provide you with the nourishment and care you need. She will finish what he started and make me cum harder than my tears after a molestation of thoughts. I know longer need to masterbate my thoughts because she has made my thoughts a flow of uncontrollable gratification.